Saturday, September 27, 2008

in my head today

Today as I was working on the bus. SOrry about the Grammer, Got spell check though.

Just left work going to mother in laws house to get my tools from the Laws car, but wait I need my church keys, dang it I have to go home & get them. Getting my tools from the car& what there are my church keys, man I love my wife. Calling her, Hey baby just calling to tell you your awesome for thinking of getting the keys for me, Bye I love you be careful God Bless You. Going to church, hm my truck is all shiny, wait don't get to vain, just like how the Lord gave it to you he can take it away. Wow someone has the gate open from church, getting the supplies of the truck into the refrigerator so they can be cold when the people come to work & cut the grass. Doing radiator flush on the bus, oops forgot to get stuff from Auto Zone gonna go back. OK workers will show up anytime now, I will just go inside & tell Mrs. Kim & Lucy I will be right back, OK Lucy I will check your oil, No oil in truck Lucy you need oil, Que Nina. Buying the stuff for the church, OK Lucy you owe the church 8 bucks, OK when I get back people will have started cutting the grass, getting back, hm, where could these people be why doesn't anyone come, wait a minute be more compassionate maybe they had plans, maybe they do have other stuff to do, putting oil in Lucy's truck, What check engine light still on, OH, disconnect , positive battery cable for a few seconds to reboot computer on cars, a little trick i learned, whale it worked, man it feels good working on cars. OK When are the people gonna show up it is already 12 David has a game, Lucy tells me something about the grass OK OK i know it needs to get done, i will do it, i will miss Davids games I have to do this , i guess no one will show up, what is the point don't even announce it, no one shows up any way OK calm down don't get hateful, OK OK, people have lives outside the church, yeah but what kinda of lives who cares worry about your life & how your living for God, stop looking upon other people what do you want a super Christian symbol on your chest, your crazy don't forget who your doing it for. OK OK I will pray for them instead of all these thought running in head, love them pray for them, they need your prayers, too. OK but yeah they miss church & once they do it it is so easy to do it again. Who cares worry about your self & how your living, are you living for God, OK you can wake up Early to got to work but you cant get up to go to Sunday school to visitation, to work Saturday , OK OK OK your starting to look upon them again focus focus, look upon HIM,. Remember why your here, Man it hot sure wish I had someone to help me, I AM HERE, thank you Lord, I am sorry for starting to get bitter I love you Jesus, why do you love me I am nothing Nothing worthless human being , but you still loved me thank you Lord for loving me, I want to love like you love Jesus Help me I need you in my every day life , everyday walk, every day talk , thank you Lord I need you , help me help me. OK OK Ask Logan to get you the key for the tractor to get it started, thanks Logan , what where is the Tractor, OK maybe the Laiklams have it under their carport, no its not here, OK maybe around the house, nope not there either OK call Mrs Kim, Mrs Kim do you know where the tractor is, I'm not kidding, no ma am its not there. empty feeling inside so ugly feeling home sick, feeling violated getting angry at the low down people that can steal from a church whats that Luke they cut the fence, perfect, calling the Law hey baby can you call the police, they stole the tractor & i need them to come & file a report because I know they cant do nothing. OK cops are here filing out report my age, my height , my weight, my address, wait a minute I am the victim here, don't say that keep it inside, yes sir , good answer, looking around the neighborhood this tractor cant go very far, maybe its in that uhaul looking thing stupid apartment look like a ghetto around here, betcha its in there, I want so bad to find it, its not even the churches tractor, the laiklams bought that tractor it's their tractor, so bad so bad, stupid people wont ever stop , have you prayed for the, no, they are just so bad, how were you , sorry God, Lord forgive them for what they did , but Lord I would really want that tractor back in the laiklams house, find it Lord find it, please, I pray for the people that took it may they have some conviction bout stealing it, some compassion about taking it, they can see we are not a fancy church why do they keep doing these things to us, maybe You should witness to those people in the apartment ever time every Saturday, that is what you can do. OK Lord help me to do this Lord help me i need you. OK called preacher about it, he will pray, called D, she is at Davids Game, called Lucy, to pray called J, he was busy, don't bother him,calling Eva OK no answer just leave a message, calling Zeke no answer called big Carlos, he is handing out water & ice to IKE victims leave him alone don't bother him with this, OK leaving going to Davids game, called little Carlos, praying for him , heart is beating fast & heavy what will I say will he answer, OK he didn't answer, but I will leave him a message. getting to Davids game, go baby go. that's enough from me today bye